"Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you." James 4:8a
I couldn't stay seated anymore as I sat behind my computer trying to decide what to type. What was I doing? I feel like all I'm doing is wasting valuable time! I have been in Canada for over a month now and I felt like I was not making the best use of my time.
Since coming back I have been getting more involved at the church such as helping out with the youth program, joining the women's bible study, and helping out at the kids program the first week. I have also been reconnecting with many old friends from high school and for a while I was preparing for the Tea/Silent Auction/Bake sale fundraiser which didn't have a great turn out due to the snow storm that blew in early October.
Its not easy for me to sit around and I have no idea what it truly means to relax. I know that I just came back from teaching in Korea and that this transition period that I am in is going by quickly so I should make the most of it. After God told me to let go of my future plans and truly submit them to him (again future planning is not a bad thing at all! - see previous post).
I have this mindset that I should be constantly doing something; doing something for God even but was I actually willing to slow down to spend time with him? Anxiety began to fill me as I decided I knew I needed to put out a blog. I was tempted to give up, frustrated that every time I attempted to load my post, the file would completely disappear. I could feel the tension rising within me like a balloon getting filled with too much air on the verge of exploding and falling apart.
I cried out to God. I gathered my clothes and decided that taking a walk would help me release the anxiety I was feeling. It wasn't just feeling frustrated and anxious that the update wasn't going through. I'm doing this all wrong God! I continued to feel I kept failing in some way, not preparing as I had seen others do in the past for their upcoming mission work.
Instead of looking at what others have done, look at what God has done in the past. Have I ever found myself lacking?
The weather was much cooler than it had been the day before but it was very refreshing. In the midst of my walking, I received a text about a donation that was given that nearly brought tears to my eyes. God is so good.
After returning a library book, I ventured to the local coffee shop to purchase a drink. The point card I had was finished and I was able to not only get a free coffee, but I could chose any drink off the menu. They also gave me an up size in my drink. I walked back home, holding my delicious hot sugar-free beverage with a smile on my face.
My journey is not like others nor is yours like mine. I realize that God has always been walking there beside me, waiting for me to call upon Him to draw me close and embrace me.
Draw near to God, and He WILL draw near to you!
I couldn't stay seated anymore as I sat behind my computer trying to decide what to type. What was I doing? I feel like all I'm doing is wasting valuable time! I have been in Canada for over a month now and I felt like I was not making the best use of my time.
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| Walking home with my free drink! |
I have this mindset that I should be constantly doing something; doing something for God even but was I actually willing to slow down to spend time with him? Anxiety began to fill me as I decided I knew I needed to put out a blog. I was tempted to give up, frustrated that every time I attempted to load my post, the file would completely disappear. I could feel the tension rising within me like a balloon getting filled with too much air on the verge of exploding and falling apart.
I cried out to God. I gathered my clothes and decided that taking a walk would help me release the anxiety I was feeling. It wasn't just feeling frustrated and anxious that the update wasn't going through. I'm doing this all wrong God! I continued to feel I kept failing in some way, not preparing as I had seen others do in the past for their upcoming mission work.
Instead of looking at what others have done, look at what God has done in the past. Have I ever found myself lacking?
The weather was much cooler than it had been the day before but it was very refreshing. In the midst of my walking, I received a text about a donation that was given that nearly brought tears to my eyes. God is so good.
After returning a library book, I ventured to the local coffee shop to purchase a drink. The point card I had was finished and I was able to not only get a free coffee, but I could chose any drink off the menu. They also gave me an up size in my drink. I walked back home, holding my delicious hot sugar-free beverage with a smile on my face.
My journey is not like others nor is yours like mine. I realize that God has always been walking there beside me, waiting for me to call upon Him to draw me close and embrace me.
Draw near to God, and He WILL draw near to you!
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